Post by CHRISTIAN REICHENBACH on Aug 28, 2012 12:07:30 GMT -5
Christian Reichenbach had been sitting on the bench near an empty kiask, in the deserted Bertelsmann Building, for the last four hours. It was nearing two am now, and the dimly lit building had hardly changed since he had sat down, so soon after the senile security guard Tom and his stoner companion Steve took up their shift. He was in the clear to stare blankly at the plastic ficus until sunrise. Christian was in a state of shock. He felt vulnerable for the first time in... in his memory at all. Vulnerable and scared. At the age of seventeen, four months shy of his eighteenth birthday, Christian had been told he was going to die.
Everyone was going to die of course. But it was generally treated as a surprise, something not to be thought of until they reached about seventy five. But no. Christian had faced it earlier that afternoon, alone, in a sterile hospital room, with a Doctor he barely knew. He'd just been having headaches. He just thought he was going to be given super asprin or something of the like. The CT scan was suppose to be precautionary, they weren't suppose to find anything. But they did... They found a medulloblastoma-like tumor growing into his amygdala. Not even medulloblastoma... Medulloblastoma-like. Oddly placed, slow growing, and lethal. They were too afraid just to go in and dig it out, it was so buried under important brain tissue. They suggested chemotherapy to shrink and eventually kill it.
So he pictured himself taking chemotherapy. Becoming withered, bald, and weak. It was not the cancer itself that made people go bald, it was the treatment. Christian put his face in his hands at the idea, wishing tat he could just cry. It seems like a logical outlet in a moment like this, but Adolfo Reichenbach's teaching was to deeply ingrained. He was just lost in a moment, sinking in his own suppressed emotions. Treatment might not work, if it does the effects after will last forever. If he were to die, what would he be leaving behind? What had he ever done? He had mildly annoyed people, he had indulged in a the life of a hedonist. But in this moment he could find nothing of substance.
He was going to die.
And it all means nothing.
He had spent his life being aimless. And arrow with no target. He had never had to work or plan for the long run, because it had all been worked out for him. It had all been planned for him. The intelligence was wasted, the breath was wasted. Emilie did not love him, his parents did not love him, Adolfo did not love him. He was a pest, and inconvenience, and an heir.
Nothing more.
He was going to die.
And it all meant nothing.
He got up from his bench and began walking along the corridors. Any shopping complex after hours felt poetic to Christian. The lights were dimmed, the goods could be seen through the windows and gates, the halls were barren. It almost felt like he was watching someone in the shower. An invasive attraction, a beauty that was taboo. Consumerism at rest. Recharging for the next day of slinging bullshit. Christian wanted nothing more right now, than to be like everyone else. To fall in line with the people who roam these hollow passage way, and not roam alone. At night.
But at that thought, a sickness took him. He rushed to the nearest trashcan and emptied his gut, clutching the sides as bile rushed out of him. Like his body was rejecting such feelings. Sadly for Christian there was no contents to come out of his temperamental gut, and instead stomach acid fell out. It was agonizingly painful, bringing him to his knees, heaving for air to sooth his throat.
And as he rested on the eggshell linoleum, letting the cold and grimy floor comfort his hot cheek, he thought. He was going to die, this was a fact. Even if the doctors attempted to give him hope, he knew there was little. He could see it on their faces. They had pitied him. And Christian Reichenbach was a proud man. He would be pitied by no man, least of all himself.
He was going to die.
And it didn't matter.
He would not take treatment. He would not die without leaving a legacy behind. And as he made this vow to himself, something in him awoke. Not the mind of a petty teenage boy, but something far more dark. Far more ruthless. He would not be the Napoleon of the Classroom, he'd be the Napoleon of Crime, and he'd make his mark.
Peace came over Christian, as he brought himself to his knees and looked up, almost as though praising some primal God he had just created. He smile had crossed over his widely set, thin, lips. "I'm going to die. And it does not matter." The primal God filled him, as a small laugh escaped, following his quiet voice. He felt so free. Had he been in a cage all this time? "That's what people DO!" It was a quiet, rumbling, victorious, roar. Christian Reichenbach was the Moriarty of the twenty first century. And he'd do this proudly!
Looking down the hall, a light caught his eye. His lips were still smiling, his joy was still apparent. As he got up stealthily, he made his way to investigate, keeping carefully out of site as he approached Third Times a Charm.
Let the games begin.
outfit:; Professor Moriarty.
Everyone was going to die of course. But it was generally treated as a surprise, something not to be thought of until they reached about seventy five. But no. Christian had faced it earlier that afternoon, alone, in a sterile hospital room, with a Doctor he barely knew. He'd just been having headaches. He just thought he was going to be given super asprin or something of the like. The CT scan was suppose to be precautionary, they weren't suppose to find anything. But they did... They found a medulloblastoma-like tumor growing into his amygdala. Not even medulloblastoma... Medulloblastoma-like. Oddly placed, slow growing, and lethal. They were too afraid just to go in and dig it out, it was so buried under important brain tissue. They suggested chemotherapy to shrink and eventually kill it.
So he pictured himself taking chemotherapy. Becoming withered, bald, and weak. It was not the cancer itself that made people go bald, it was the treatment. Christian put his face in his hands at the idea, wishing tat he could just cry. It seems like a logical outlet in a moment like this, but Adolfo Reichenbach's teaching was to deeply ingrained. He was just lost in a moment, sinking in his own suppressed emotions. Treatment might not work, if it does the effects after will last forever. If he were to die, what would he be leaving behind? What had he ever done? He had mildly annoyed people, he had indulged in a the life of a hedonist. But in this moment he could find nothing of substance.
He was going to die.
And it all means nothing.
He had spent his life being aimless. And arrow with no target. He had never had to work or plan for the long run, because it had all been worked out for him. It had all been planned for him. The intelligence was wasted, the breath was wasted. Emilie did not love him, his parents did not love him, Adolfo did not love him. He was a pest, and inconvenience, and an heir.
Nothing more.
He was going to die.
And it all meant nothing.
He got up from his bench and began walking along the corridors. Any shopping complex after hours felt poetic to Christian. The lights were dimmed, the goods could be seen through the windows and gates, the halls were barren. It almost felt like he was watching someone in the shower. An invasive attraction, a beauty that was taboo. Consumerism at rest. Recharging for the next day of slinging bullshit. Christian wanted nothing more right now, than to be like everyone else. To fall in line with the people who roam these hollow passage way, and not roam alone. At night.
But at that thought, a sickness took him. He rushed to the nearest trashcan and emptied his gut, clutching the sides as bile rushed out of him. Like his body was rejecting such feelings. Sadly for Christian there was no contents to come out of his temperamental gut, and instead stomach acid fell out. It was agonizingly painful, bringing him to his knees, heaving for air to sooth his throat.
And as he rested on the eggshell linoleum, letting the cold and grimy floor comfort his hot cheek, he thought. He was going to die, this was a fact. Even if the doctors attempted to give him hope, he knew there was little. He could see it on their faces. They had pitied him. And Christian Reichenbach was a proud man. He would be pitied by no man, least of all himself.
He was going to die.
And it didn't matter.
He would not take treatment. He would not die without leaving a legacy behind. And as he made this vow to himself, something in him awoke. Not the mind of a petty teenage boy, but something far more dark. Far more ruthless. He would not be the Napoleon of the Classroom, he'd be the Napoleon of Crime, and he'd make his mark.
Peace came over Christian, as he brought himself to his knees and looked up, almost as though praising some primal God he had just created. He smile had crossed over his widely set, thin, lips. "I'm going to die. And it does not matter." The primal God filled him, as a small laugh escaped, following his quiet voice. He felt so free. Had he been in a cage all this time? "That's what people DO!" It was a quiet, rumbling, victorious, roar. Christian Reichenbach was the Moriarty of the twenty first century. And he'd do this proudly!
Looking down the hall, a light caught his eye. His lips were still smiling, his joy was still apparent. As he got up stealthily, he made his way to investigate, keeping carefully out of site as he approached Third Times a Charm.
Let the games begin.
outfit:; Professor Moriarty.